i always write, at least i try to write, every night, before i go to bed. i just go on and on, hoping to come to some conclusion about what it is that is propelling my fingers to type. God shows up though, and i always seem to come to a conclusion, through Him.
maybe this is me just writing for some other people, not just for my own answers. maybe this will just be reflections. who knows?
what a mess
i seem to learn a ton of stuff, about life and Jesus and this world and how twisted this place truly is. but then i go back to my old ways, my old habits.
its like, one of those things that you run from, that you truly want to hide from, that you think you have it in your grasps, that youve finally hidden from it. and then it sneaks up and takes you right back to where you started.
i know God is there with his amazing strength and forgiveness, like, i know He lives here in me, and that everything is easily escapable if only i believe in Him. if that is what i believe, why dont i follow through with it?
Sin died 2000 years ago on a tree.
But here it is, the kicker.
we are humans
and since that is the sometimes unfortunate case
we will fall regardless of how far we make it.
it seems to me that is hopeless.
i mean, we can never win, we will always end up in the ditch next to the narrow path.
and it seems like a race, an endless impossible journey, to just try and remain pure and holy, and be like Jesus Christ
and ive tried so hard, and ran so long, sometimes it feels to much to handle.
i guess Jesus Christ came to save a person like me, and like you. he didnt come just to heal the sick people of Nazareth and Galilee,
he came so that i could live. and so that you could live.
and no matter how many fricken times we fall down, tired and sick and exhausted and unworthy
He will be there picking us back up and giving us the biggest and best hug imaginable
i dont know whether or not hope like that can be found anywhere else. not in weapons that kill the innocent of Iraq and Afghanistan do we find peace
but in the embrace of the wounded hands of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.
joshua
